Temper.

It's difficult for me to temper my personality, but I am trying to be a little more sensible about it. If I lose my temper, I go to my room and scream and shout, but I try not to lose it on people any more. I've never said something mean just like that. I've only said things in retaliation. It makes me really frustrated that I am still not the patient that I want to be. I think part of my problem comes from the fact that the little things in life are constantly changing and are unpredictable. I have expectations in my head for how our day will go or how certain events will play out, and then BAM! Things get crazy. Some unproductive ways that I deal with anger include pretending nothing is wrong, losing my temper and saying mean things or yelling and expressing my anger indirectly. Sometimes I have to remove myself from what is going on for a second and take a trip and repeat to myself, "it is not that big of a deal." Some people suggest taking deep breaths, but doing that makes me more stressed out for some reason.