Indescribable Feeling

    Something indescribable is too intense, extreme or unusual to describe. A feeling beyond words, a feeling where you hurt so much to where words just aren't enough to explain how you feel. A feeling when you barely even know. It's like impatience, the feeling when you really want to get to know someone and fast. Never know where to go or which way to choose. Sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself because sometimes I couldn't find any language to describe them in. Not everything needs to be shared. 

    When I always remind myself that everything in life is easier when you don't concern yourself with what everybody else is doing or thinking. But it always kicks in so bad. The worst is crying when you're lying in bed, with your hand over your mouth so you don't make noise. The tears are running onto your pillow and your heart's breaking and you're thinking everything that made you cry and another hand is on your heart or stomach because they both hurt. 

    I get way too sensitive when I get attached to someone. I kinda detect the slightest change in the tone of their voice and suddenly I'm spending all day trying to figure out what I did wrong. I honestly just need someone to come into my life that really genuinely cares about me and wants to sit and have long conversations about things that actually matter and wants to go on adventures late at night and wants to be there for me at my lowest weakest points and celebrate with me at my highest points and just be the rock that keeps me going when life gets rough.